Ada satu kisah tentang seseorang. " Pada satu hari yang indah, dia telah berkata, "الله اكبر". Kemudian dia menyambung lagi, "لا إلـﮧ إلاَّ اللـَّـﮧ مُـכـمَّــدْ رَسُــولُ اللـَّـﮧ". Selepas itu dia berkata, "لا إِلهَ إِلاَّ أَنْتَ سُبْحانَكَ إِنّى كُنْتُ مِنَ الظَّالِمينَ". Dia menambah sikit lagi, "سُبْحانَ اللهِ وَبِحَمْدِهِ, سُبْحَانَ اللهِ الْعَظِيْمِ". Dengan melakukan semua perkara berikut, dia telah diberi ganjaran yang sangat besar dari ALLAH SWT. Kamu mahu tahu siapakah orang yang beruntung itu? Orang itu adalah KAMU! 【ツ】Silakan share pada teman-teman yang lain. Moga beroleh manfaat..=)

things wont be the way u want it to be...

it happen to be coincidentally..

it isn't what you think it will be...

spinning mind

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spinning mind

love ALLAH

spinning mind

“If Allah loves someone, He will give that person faith. If Allah loves that person a little bit more, He will give that person strenght and perseverance to practice His religion perfectly. And If Allah loves that person a little bit more, He will make the life on the Dunya difficult for that slave of His to test how far is the love of His Slave to Him.”

alhubbuna

u will...

spinning mind...
sometimes u don't know what do u really want...its kinda secret..
when u obsess of wanting it...it appears to be a dream..
and somehow...its a dream of the others...

u keep on learning about their needs..their wants..their thoughts...
but u never even want to know yours...
u sacrifice your own priority for the others..
till u feel lost yourself nowadays...

a sacrifice...will born a new life...



the previous life... let it be...
even the break down is silent...the truth will reveal...
those thing u have is not worth it...if u don't share with the others...
the knowledge, the experience, the property..

regain your confident...
even when u feel shy, demotivated or thorn apart...
not because the past that haunt u..
but because the bright future u are headed to..

when u suddenly think u where lost..
without knowing where to go..

you've actually create a strength to live on.. 

because there is a place that call for u somewhere..

u'll find your way..

somehow..

somehow... i felt my life a bit bless these days..
somehow.. i felt that Allah helps me a lot in my duniawi affair..
somehow.. i felt that im really close to Him..
somehow... i felt that they are good to me..
somehow... i felt that we know each other well..
somehow.. i felt all my problems gone..
somehow... i felt all my anger, my revenge, my irritableness gone..
somehow.. i felt that i meet someone i knew back then..
somehow... i felt that the burden responsibility of mine is began to expand..
somehow.. i felt an excitement in me..
somehow.. i felt that i ll be dead in deep unconsciousness..
somehow.. i felt the shameful me is losing itself..
somehow.. i felt im becoming more awareness to the surrounding..
somehow.. i felt my presence were bless..
somehow.. i felt that im needed..
somehow.. i felt my life is throbbing me apart..
somehow.. i felt more irritates than before..
somehow.. i felt my anger grown bigger..
somehow.. i felt that u r no longer a friend..
somehow.. i felt bless to be in that group..
somehow... i felt more happier than before..
somehow.. i felt that my life is changing..
somehow.. i felt really down that time..
somehow.. i felt that ive got time for myself..
somehow.. i felt my life changing into something beauty..
somehow.. i felt more confidence in living my life today..

well...it is somehow 'somehow'..
so..somehow, it doesnt mean it remain forever..
it will change due to passing time..
the time is extremely jealous with man..so live ur life..
dont depend on 'somehow' ..
somehow leads to many story, many events, anytime, anywhere, anyhow...

n for mine either..u may hv seen sme sentence is the same...or vise versa..
well...it happen since..hmmm..oh! just this monday...and a lot of things happen in only a days, huh?
well...really creepy ey...i aint living in this world for nothing..but Allah' bless...
so..if anyone sees me doing wrong...do please tell me , my mistake..so i would correct them..
teach me..as well...coz im still lack in everything.. ^^

bismillahirahmaanirrahim....
ya allah jika aku jatuh cinta
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya pada mu
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaimu ya muhaimin

jika aku jatuh hati
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padamu....
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu
ya rabbana ,jika aku jatuh hati jagalah hatiku padanya
agar tidak berpaling daripada hatimu....

ya rabbul izzati jika aku rindu
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalanmu...
ya allah,jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihmu janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan
indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu ya allah,
jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihmu janganlah biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam
perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadamu.....

ya allah jika kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihmu jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas..
sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepadamu....


amin.....


wlupun bkn aq hasilkan... nis nak berkongsi ini pada semua.....:

oh choral speaking!!! hate u!!!

oh!!! i hope i can skip this...ireally hate doing such things...i never involve in this ever...n now..i HAVE TO??!!!
its stupid, for me...
no! its not stupid..but its embarrassing..or mybe not embarrasing..but creepy enough for me...more than go some places alone...><
i hate it but im in it now,,...
 well...im okeyh with it now..i think i can do it...

BUT, when it comes to the other problem...that is...i take the role as a CONDUCTOR!!! this is real stupid...><
even i dont have to look at the audience...but looking at my choral speaking member is enough to make me freak out...
this mybe look normal for certain people...
but i CANT!!!
this isnt a game u can put me in...
i mean, its obvious that i cant do it..how could i raise my hand n drop it n raising it again n make some move with it or whatever...
oh Allah, please help me, guide me, n make me strong, give me strength.
can u imagine,  being in front of the crowd, where u r the only person, that is different from other n move ur hand backing them..??
i really cant do it...but ive been force to..><
its not that i cant speak english...its just that 'u faathimah, u be the conductor, u dont have to facing the audience..' What the heck?!
geezz...some people with their thoughts..fool others with the power in their hand...
mad at those who r already willing to do it...mad just bcoz she arguing,..or confuse or just 'no! no! no!' (but still...she has to do it...)
isnt it stupid...?
mybe for those who dont know the situation would just say 'coward lil girl' or smthing between...
but u r not in her shoes to say that...so u actually dont deserve to say anything...to condemn her...
u my thought u think abt her, but actually u didnt, u just thought abt others....><

maaf yea....mmg sy mcmnie...

hmmm...bkn soal xsuke atau x...
mgkin awk nmpk sy mcm nie, mcm tue..
tapi awk kne tahu...sy bkn sesorg yg boleh pndang sesorg atau bckp dgn mreka dgn pndgn scara tepat atau direct...
awk mgkin xtahu..sy mmg xbole..klau ad satu saat...sy akn trus pndg ke bwh..apabila kte btntg mata...
hmm..maaf klau awk terasa...tp sy mmg cmnie..
klau awk terasa, sy mmg mntk maaf..xkire la pmpuan laki...sume sama....
awk mgkin xsedar, awk mgkin bkn jenis yg memerhati atau peka...tp sy xbuat kat awk sorg jea...
awk terasa mgkin sbb awk dh biasa org perhatikn awk bila awk bsuara..
tp awk xsedar sy jenis mcm mne..awk trus tegur sy...
sy mmg xterasa tntg teguran tue...tp sy terasa sbb awk xknal diri sy...

kdg2 sy sedar..sy tahu, msti sesiapa pa terasa dgn sikap sy...even ckgu2 dulu jugak...tp..maaf yea ckgu2 n kwn2 skalian...klau bckp...sy susah nk tgok org...
sy lbeyh suka mngalih pndgn atau mnunduk kn pndgn..bkn kerana benci, tetapi, itu ialah cara sy nk fokus ap yg mrk katakan..cara sy mgmbarkn sesuatu..cara sy utk dgr lbeyh jelas...
awk tdk sedarkah...hal ini pnah dikatakan dulu?
..masa kite mula2 bkwn?
..masa sy buat awk sebegitu mula2?
..masa awk ttny2?

lae satu...mgkin awk tgok sy nie xbyk ckp, diam,...xpn..klau bckp, msti kasar bhasa ny n org kata 'otai'? aduuiii...><

manusia nie pnyai plbgai ragam, plbgai sifat, plbagai fikiran n plbgai tujuan...

nk bkomunikasi dgn mreka..kdg2 kne bhikmah, kne pnyai mse, kne tahu cara...

risau nnt, ad yg sakit hati, tk puas hati, syak wasangka,

r klau tlbeyh bkata2 t, byk salah, byk dosa...xpn timbul fitnah or kata2 lari dr fakta or kisah sbnar....

hmm..nie la masalah ny...krisauan yg mnybabkn lidah nie kurg bckp, kurg bkomunikasi, kurg bkata2..

bile jd mcm nie..org akn kata 'ad emas dlm mulut' or ap2 la..

tue xjd masalah...sy mmg xkisah..tp manusia sering tsalah anggap..

disbbkn masalah nie, sy tau...sy kdg2 xbleyh nk mnutur kn ayat atau kata2 yg lbeyh sopan...

coz kbnykn masa sy lbeyh byk mndengar dr bckp...tp bile mndgr, pn jd masalah juga..><

hmm...ble dfikirkn, sy mmg jarang bckp...even in family...trasa mcm xdpt seiring dgn ap yg dborakkan...

plus, sy mmg xad idea...

lbeyh byk mndgr dr bckp...

bckp hny ble plu n ble dminta pndpt...

ad suatu sy ketika sy petah bckp, itu mgkin bkn diri sy...mgkin sy tlalu obsess disuatu ketika..mgkin ketika itu, sy nmpk, awk bleyh jd pndgr baek sy...

sy rse haru, sdeyh atau kecil bile xad siape knal diri sy sbnrny...

wlaupn sbnrny, sy sndri xcube utk knal awk...(nie pn sbb sy rse sy xlayak..awk dh lbeyh rmai kwn, org yg knali awk lbeyh dr sy...)

maaf yea...ayat tbelit2...

klau xpham...maaf yea...

ble tckp pnjg, org xpham...ble ckp skit pn, xpham...

...karut je sy ni kn...hmmpp...:(

apa dh jadi?

dlm beberapa ari nie...gaya pmakanan n lifestyle pn dh brubah2..
huhh,...bru jea td.. kne chair-red-bear-red...moon-tah-moon-tah..
hmm....mmg, salah sndri la...
air n mknan sume.mmg ditolak trus oleh prut...
rindu masakan rumah, eh!! masakan ummi laa..
...even cucur goreng ummi wt pn akn jd plihan...ikan blis goreng n sambal ijau pn Alhamdulillah..one of ma favourite...
hmm..air kt sni. *. *. *. *. *.  mknan ny. *. *. *. *

eihsshh...xelok plak..nk condemn2 kt snie...dh la mknan hrian..mne x, xberkat jdny...
hmm...
kdg2 ttnye jgk...mkn ke xmkn yg bgus?
wlaupn mknan ny menaikn nafsu...tp bdget kluar..n nie pnybab nk saving2 jea mknan...
cth, ari nie, bli tghari utk mlm skali, klau sdap lae...ha! smpai sok pg la jwpny...
haha...
klakar ble pkir..mmg mmkin fat la duk snie...tp fat sbb ap?
lemak btmbah xkurg or cacing? hahaha...
(actually, xad pn tpikir cacing...bru jea td...:-p)

anyway...hope sume dpt mkn sihat2 la..especially kat rmah tue...jgn ingt 'sis bruntung la..dpt mkn sdap2..ummi msak bnda sme jea tiap2 ari..'
eissshhh..rezki msing2 kn...nk wat cmne dh rzki sndri or salah sndri wat diri sndir jd cmnie...><
haha...

klau dh skit tue...mmg sorry, d klinik is not ma destination...is horrible keyh...soo sorry bg sahabat2 yg mmg ambil berat..sruh g..tp..ia akn mysahkn byk pihak..so, biar sy skit sorg2..><
laepn..normally no one knows...nie kak yana la nie, p cite kt org..><
maaf kak yana..:-p

may Allah bless eberryone, especially those who are good to me..only Allah cud return d favour...

stupidity

slalu ny..org akan pndg satu perkara dgn satu sudut jea...
so, ble wat conclusion pn, kdg2 membabi buta xbtul...
manusia mmg cmnie kea?
actually..i do involve in this too (sometimes)...
tp yg nie mmg xle kta ap la...
Ya Allah...adakah kerana satu perkara itu, telah mnyebbkb aku mlupakan mu dan telah mlakukan zina hati (secara tidak sngaja), aku mndpt balasan sdemikian rupa?
sometimes, we think we r close enough with them...but actually...the path is still miles away...
dan sbb nie...kte jd damn stupid bodoh...
xdpt nilai dgn btul...
(hmmm....aduuuiiii...dh bcmpur dh sume...various story in one paragraph? its INSANE i cud say...)

diri nie byk sgt ....smpai xtau mne stu nk pkai n mne stu yg sbnarnya...><
nk kta htpocryte? i am NOT...
but, i CANT be myself...or mybe i DONT know the REAL ME...


ble dinilai dr sudut negatif (wlaupn sumeny perlu, absolutely have to, in POSITIVE)..kte dpt nmpk, or berpkir nape, tujuan, sbb ssorg bwt cmtue...
hmmm...mmg bley trasa ati GILER gilak...
sik apat mek mok molah ap2 laek...nk idup kedak tok...mek plu lbeyh maju agik...
mek sik bole bgntung arap pd org jak nk...tok yg jdik ny 'mati tgh jln'...

for somehow, somereason, sometimes, somewhat, some(..anything some...) 
im thankful to be here, to know them, to think abt them, to be with them, to(...whtever them...)
 well...not bcoz i think like this, they would think the same..
not bcoz i feel like this, they would feel the same..
not bcoz i want like this, they would want the same...
everyone is diferent ...their will, their wants, their feelings, their thought, their hobbs, their(...everything their...) 

mybe dorg anggap ianya 'ala...perkara biasa..normal la..' tp kite dh terlalu (pndg kedepan) 'aeii...sukenyee..first time. . .blablabla. . . .'
xkea nameny..DIPERBODOHkn oleh emosi sndri..pmikiran sndri..pndgn sndri...
sume nie nafsu yg meminkn pranan..kite jea xsedar...
xpn keinginan, atau desperatation (haha...jgn trikut2 dlm esei, ayt2 nie...sume x ori..t kne mara..:-p)


kdg2, ad smething yg kte xdpt reveal dgn hardeye nie...
wlau ap2 pn...trima ksih sgt2 bwt mereka yg buat kte prasan sorg2, bwt kte trasa dhargai, bwt kte trasa secure, bwt kte mympah or x suk (ad kea? mcm org jea mnyampah kt kte..), bwt dri ni semngt, bwt nasihat utk kte, bwt kte xrse sorg2, bwt kte xterasing..
n maaf sgt bwt mreka yg kte bwt, xendah, bwt terasing, bwt mnympah, bwt bodo, bwt....( whatever bwt...)
ONLY ALLAH could return the favor..
only ALLAH..is the one, the Almighty God..

siapakah diri ini?

di saat aku terlena dan hmpir diulit mimpi...
aku terjaga..dan menyedari..
bahwa aku keseorangn tnpa arah utk aku tujui..
aku khilgn kata dan
aku sedar..pilihan dan jln dhpn ku ini..
hnya pmulaan bg khidupan sbnar n lbey mncabar..
tanpa ku sedari,
aku hmpir lemas ..dek pbuatan n ptuturan mrk sekelilingku...
aku lemah...lemah mahu mneruskn pjlanan hidup ni..
ap yg aku miliki, tidak terasa spt ia mahukan ku..
terasa spt beban kepada mrk..
no one knows me..
they shouldnt be friend with me, just bcoz they pity me..


but somehow...
i saw a light, light that cud gve me happiness...
i know u treat everyone the same as u treat me...
but, im thankful that i know u...
u makes me feel that i still hve hope to live..

myb u ve experience it before..
so u know the best for me, or wat i shud be...(dat is, myself)
i finally realize, wat ive become to...
i cant be myself, bcoz i think to much abt them...
(bknny 'think' care tp 'think' think..)
 ummi once told me 'jgn pkirkn ap yg org pkir tntg ap yg awk buat...sume tue x pnting..'
hm...mmg btul la, tp kdg2 bkn ny kte risau kn ap yg org pkir...
tp ketidakselesaan yg dtgny dr mrk yg mmndg...huhh...

'keselesaan lbeyh penting dr kcantikn n kekemasan'


sbnrny xksah la dr ap pn...tp still kselesaan pnting..
boley ke pkir mcm nie?
i usually think like this...
klau xslesa..cmne nk slesaikn ap yg plu dselesaikn ataupn brda dmne2 yg kite plu brada...
hm...scara universal la...tak kire la ap2 pn....

not me-self anymore

ya Allah ...Alhamdulillah..

i think im one of the lucky person...

but somewhat..

i feel empty..when something tor anything seems to be okeyh...

well...maybe i ve took it all as a compliment or never bother to be hurt...

its like, im lost with my unknown-self 

its really sad pathetic to see n to say...

but somehow...i found someone..or somebody...

that really open my mind..

she is really cute...

facing her toughness-of-life simply..

really admire her...

just hope i cud be like her..(her, of being herself)

its really cool...

from the first time i came here..

it really change the way i act, think n be...

hmm...

the worst is...

im not getting good or humble,

but bad jerk and slow stupid...

huhh...

the best

 be the best u can be, 

evrything people say to u, take it as a compliment..

live ur life for ALLAH..then u ll achieve happiness no matter where u are...

keep ur problem

or let a person hear u..

ALLAH will be near u always n help u...

be who u r..

always know that u r precious, 

coz we r the chosen one , khalifah of the world...

BEAST - '내 여자친구를 부탁해(Say No)' M/V

haer me

ya Allah, forgive me for what i've done..
i want to apologies..but
why there is no time for me?
why im sush a scaredery cat?
why didnt i had the chance?
ya Allah, please give me strength to live in such a world..
im lonely..
im scared..
im sad..
the tears that over flow...no one realise..
the shivering of coldness n scared..i've try to ignore...but
the memory n feeling still remain, so, please God..help me, console me, protect me..
from those who mean to me,
from those who are kind to me,
from those frighten feeling i had...
only You, im hoping for..
only Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala..

BEAST - Easy (eng/rom/hangul subs)

i just want a time for my own...

missing you

as the time pass by..
without knowing..
i start to think the memories we had together...
flash back all the time we've been through...
huhh...really miss it...

do u know?
none of the other memory could ever replace or be greater than u?
hope we'll remain forever..

dont wish 'good bye' ..
but wish 'we'll meet again'..
if we didnt meet here..
so let it be, that we meet in heaven...
where there is GOD to judge our honesty in this friendship..^^