just because of her

im being a bad gurl, am i?

please forgive me...

i just dont dare to look through their eyes...

the heart pondered, 

attacking from d inside..

forgive me, O Almighty Allah...

im seeking for Your bless...with the help of her...

will You share mine to hers?

just want her to b alryte...

now till heaven...

she's evrthng to me...

but i dont thng im evryhtng to her...

im just a person..

thank u Allah, for evrythng...

i learn d meaning of love from her hug...

i learn d meaning of consideration from her smile..

i learn d meaning of appreciation from her gift...

i learn d meaning of lonely, sadness, and pain from her tears...

Alhamdulillah...You give somthng precious...

only learn bad things..

spinning mind

i often says..i need to be alone..so i can do anythng positively, correctly...

but when im in dat state...i know im missing smthng...

i need it..

i always tke my time to b alone...

and when the time comes...

its hard for me forget...what am i when i have u...

i abruptly says, i need to go...

so evrythng will go on like it was...

but it tend to b opposite...

i missed it...

i thought of being like it, 

i can live more and live with my fullest...

but evryhtng goes wrong...

i am weak alone..

tears pours a lot

sound of cries is loud

but no one there to erase it, to console it, to cheers it...

i can only create your absence,,

to make it clear dat u r always here..

cheering me...

but...i cant fool myself i guess...

the feeling wont change...

ya Allah...make them happy...

even i know...when they need me, they act need 'me' not me...

either they r fooling themselves...or im just in it to make myself calm...

ya Allah...please guide them...in creating peaceful place..

in getting a place next to You..

plead them with Your bless...

even without my existent...

they need You...

bismillahirahmaanirrahim....
ya allah jika aku jatuh cinta
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya pada mu
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaimu ya muhaimin

jika aku jatuh hati
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padamu....
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu
ya rabbana ,jika aku jatuh hati jagalah hatiku padanya
agar tidak berpaling daripada hatimu....

ya rabbul izzati jika aku rindu
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalanmu...
ya allah,jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihmu janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan
indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu ya allah,
jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihmu janganlah biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam
perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadamu.....

ya allah jika kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihmu jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas..
sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepadamu....


amin.....


wlupun bkn aq hasilkan... nis nak berkongsi ini pada semua.....:

apa dh jadi?

dlm beberapa ari nie...gaya pmakanan n lifestyle pn dh brubah2..
huhh,...bru jea td.. kne chair-red-bear-red...moon-tah-moon-tah..
hmm....mmg, salah sndri la...
air n mknan sume.mmg ditolak trus oleh prut...
rindu masakan rumah, eh!! masakan ummi laa..
...even cucur goreng ummi wt pn akn jd plihan...ikan blis goreng n sambal ijau pn Alhamdulillah..one of ma favourite...
hmm..air kt sni. *. *. *. *. *.  mknan ny. *. *. *. *

eihsshh...xelok plak..nk condemn2 kt snie...dh la mknan hrian..mne x, xberkat jdny...
hmm...
kdg2 ttnye jgk...mkn ke xmkn yg bgus?
wlaupn mknan ny menaikn nafsu...tp bdget kluar..n nie pnybab nk saving2 jea mknan...
cth, ari nie, bli tghari utk mlm skali, klau sdap lae...ha! smpai sok pg la jwpny...
haha...
klakar ble pkir..mmg mmkin fat la duk snie...tp fat sbb ap?
lemak btmbah xkurg or cacing? hahaha...
(actually, xad pn tpikir cacing...bru jea td...:-p)

anyway...hope sume dpt mkn sihat2 la..especially kat rmah tue...jgn ingt 'sis bruntung la..dpt mkn sdap2..ummi msak bnda sme jea tiap2 ari..'
eissshhh..rezki msing2 kn...nk wat cmne dh rzki sndri or salah sndri wat diri sndir jd cmnie...><
haha...

klau dh skit tue...mmg sorry, d klinik is not ma destination...is horrible keyh...soo sorry bg sahabat2 yg mmg ambil berat..sruh g..tp..ia akn mysahkn byk pihak..so, biar sy skit sorg2..><
laepn..normally no one knows...nie kak yana la nie, p cite kt org..><
maaf kak yana..:-p

may Allah bless eberryone, especially those who are good to me..only Allah cud return d favour...

missing you

as the time pass by..
without knowing..
i start to think the memories we had together...
flash back all the time we've been through...
huhh...really miss it...

do u know?
none of the other memory could ever replace or be greater than u?
hope we'll remain forever..

dont wish 'good bye' ..
but wish 'we'll meet again'..
if we didnt meet here..
so let it be, that we meet in heaven...
where there is GOD to judge our honesty in this friendship..^^