just because of her

im being a bad gurl, am i?

please forgive me...

i just dont dare to look through their eyes...

the heart pondered, 

attacking from d inside..

forgive me, O Almighty Allah...

im seeking for Your bless...with the help of her...

will You share mine to hers?

just want her to b alryte...

now till heaven...

she's evrthng to me...

but i dont thng im evryhtng to her...

im just a person..

thank u Allah, for evrythng...

i learn d meaning of love from her hug...

i learn d meaning of consideration from her smile..

i learn d meaning of appreciation from her gift...

i learn d meaning of lonely, sadness, and pain from her tears...

Alhamdulillah...You give somthng precious...

somehow..

somehow... i felt my life a bit bless these days..
somehow.. i felt that Allah helps me a lot in my duniawi affair..
somehow.. i felt that im really close to Him..
somehow... i felt that they are good to me..
somehow... i felt that we know each other well..
somehow.. i felt all my problems gone..
somehow... i felt all my anger, my revenge, my irritableness gone..
somehow.. i felt that i meet someone i knew back then..
somehow... i felt that the burden responsibility of mine is began to expand..
somehow.. i felt an excitement in me..
somehow.. i felt that i ll be dead in deep unconsciousness..
somehow.. i felt the shameful me is losing itself..
somehow.. i felt im becoming more awareness to the surrounding..
somehow.. i felt my presence were bless..
somehow.. i felt that im needed..
somehow.. i felt my life is throbbing me apart..
somehow.. i felt more irritates than before..
somehow.. i felt my anger grown bigger..
somehow.. i felt that u r no longer a friend..
somehow.. i felt bless to be in that group..
somehow... i felt more happier than before..
somehow.. i felt that my life is changing..
somehow.. i felt really down that time..
somehow.. i felt that ive got time for myself..
somehow.. i felt my life changing into something beauty..
somehow.. i felt more confidence in living my life today..

well...it is somehow 'somehow'..
so..somehow, it doesnt mean it remain forever..
it will change due to passing time..
the time is extremely jealous with man..so live ur life..
dont depend on 'somehow' ..
somehow leads to many story, many events, anytime, anywhere, anyhow...

n for mine either..u may hv seen sme sentence is the same...or vise versa..
well...it happen since..hmmm..oh! just this monday...and a lot of things happen in only a days, huh?
well...really creepy ey...i aint living in this world for nothing..but Allah' bless...
so..if anyone sees me doing wrong...do please tell me , my mistake..so i would correct them..
teach me..as well...coz im still lack in everything.. ^^

siapakah diri ini?

di saat aku terlena dan hmpir diulit mimpi...
aku terjaga..dan menyedari..
bahwa aku keseorangn tnpa arah utk aku tujui..
aku khilgn kata dan
aku sedar..pilihan dan jln dhpn ku ini..
hnya pmulaan bg khidupan sbnar n lbey mncabar..
tanpa ku sedari,
aku hmpir lemas ..dek pbuatan n ptuturan mrk sekelilingku...
aku lemah...lemah mahu mneruskn pjlanan hidup ni..
ap yg aku miliki, tidak terasa spt ia mahukan ku..
terasa spt beban kepada mrk..
no one knows me..
they shouldnt be friend with me, just bcoz they pity me..


but somehow...
i saw a light, light that cud gve me happiness...
i know u treat everyone the same as u treat me...
but, im thankful that i know u...
u makes me feel that i still hve hope to live..

myb u ve experience it before..
so u know the best for me, or wat i shud be...(dat is, myself)
i finally realize, wat ive become to...
i cant be myself, bcoz i think to much abt them...
(bknny 'think' care tp 'think' think..)
 ummi once told me 'jgn pkirkn ap yg org pkir tntg ap yg awk buat...sume tue x pnting..'
hm...mmg btul la, tp kdg2 bkn ny kte risau kn ap yg org pkir...
tp ketidakselesaan yg dtgny dr mrk yg mmndg...huhh...

'keselesaan lbeyh penting dr kcantikn n kekemasan'


sbnrny xksah la dr ap pn...tp still kselesaan pnting..
boley ke pkir mcm nie?
i usually think like this...
klau xslesa..cmne nk slesaikn ap yg plu dselesaikn ataupn brda dmne2 yg kite plu brada...
hm...scara universal la...tak kire la ap2 pn....

haer me

ya Allah, forgive me for what i've done..
i want to apologies..but
why there is no time for me?
why im sush a scaredery cat?
why didnt i had the chance?
ya Allah, please give me strength to live in such a world..
im lonely..
im scared..
im sad..
the tears that over flow...no one realise..
the shivering of coldness n scared..i've try to ignore...but
the memory n feeling still remain, so, please God..help me, console me, protect me..
from those who mean to me,
from those who are kind to me,
from those frighten feeling i had...
only You, im hoping for..
only Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala..