sahabat...maafkan aku...

Duhai sahabat…

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maafkan aku...

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana apa yang aku telah lakukan…maafkan aku

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana kata2 ku…maafkan aku

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana pandangan ku terhadap mu…maafkan aku

Jika engakau membenci aku kerana teguranku kepada mu…maafkan aku

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana perlakuan dan akhlak ku…maafkan aku

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Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang aku perlu lakukan..

Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang terbaik dapat ku lakukan untuk mu

Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang dapat menjadikan kamu gembira…tp mungkin tidak bahagia…

Maafkan aku…

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Terkadang…aku jadikan kata2 mu ketika marah ny kamu…sebagai sesuatu yang dapat menggembirakan kamu… agar kamu tidak lagi marah…sedang kamu tidak ketahui…ia sebenarnya memakan diri ini….

Sahabat…andai ku tahu…itu yang kamu mahu…tidak ku cuba untuk berkeras kepada kamu…

biarpun ia untuk kebaikkan kamu…

biarpun ia penunjuk kasih sayang ku pada mu…

biarpun ia pemangkin semangat buat mu…

biarpun ianya adalah untuk kamu meningkatkan diri mu…

Maafkan aku…

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Andai aku mencalarkan kaca buatan kita…

Andai aku membusukkan bunga yang terkuntum antara kita…

Andai aku mengotori kain lukisan kita…

Andai aku mengaburkan warna pelangi yang tersinar antara kita…

Andai aku menyembunyikan kecantikkan dan keindahan laut yang terbentang antara kita…

Andai aku merosakkan kesempurnaan kasih sayang terbina antara kita…

Maafkan aku…

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hanya yang terbaik yang ku mahu lakukan untuk mu...

sungguh...jika aku punyai syurga di dunia....akan ku serahkan kepunyaan ku padamu... 

just because of her

im being a bad gurl, am i?

please forgive me...

i just dont dare to look through their eyes...

the heart pondered, 

attacking from d inside..

forgive me, O Almighty Allah...

im seeking for Your bless...with the help of her...

will You share mine to hers?

just want her to b alryte...

now till heaven...

she's evrthng to me...

but i dont thng im evryhtng to her...

im just a person..

thank u Allah, for evrythng...

i learn d meaning of love from her hug...

i learn d meaning of consideration from her smile..

i learn d meaning of appreciation from her gift...

i learn d meaning of lonely, sadness, and pain from her tears...

Alhamdulillah...You give somthng precious...

only learn bad things..

spinning mind

i often says..i need to be alone..so i can do anythng positively, correctly...

but when im in dat state...i know im missing smthng...

i need it..

i always tke my time to b alone...

and when the time comes...

its hard for me forget...what am i when i have u...

i abruptly says, i need to go...

so evrythng will go on like it was...

but it tend to b opposite...

i missed it...

i thought of being like it, 

i can live more and live with my fullest...

but evryhtng goes wrong...

i am weak alone..

tears pours a lot

sound of cries is loud

but no one there to erase it, to console it, to cheers it...

i can only create your absence,,

to make it clear dat u r always here..

cheering me...

but...i cant fool myself i guess...

the feeling wont change...

ya Allah...make them happy...

even i know...when they need me, they act need 'me' not me...

either they r fooling themselves...or im just in it to make myself calm...

ya Allah...please guide them...in creating peaceful place..

in getting a place next to You..

plead them with Your bless...

even without my existent...

they need You...

somehow..

somehow... i felt my life a bit bless these days..
somehow.. i felt that Allah helps me a lot in my duniawi affair..
somehow.. i felt that im really close to Him..
somehow... i felt that they are good to me..
somehow... i felt that we know each other well..
somehow.. i felt all my problems gone..
somehow... i felt all my anger, my revenge, my irritableness gone..
somehow.. i felt that i meet someone i knew back then..
somehow... i felt that the burden responsibility of mine is began to expand..
somehow.. i felt an excitement in me..
somehow.. i felt that i ll be dead in deep unconsciousness..
somehow.. i felt the shameful me is losing itself..
somehow.. i felt im becoming more awareness to the surrounding..
somehow.. i felt my presence were bless..
somehow.. i felt that im needed..
somehow.. i felt my life is throbbing me apart..
somehow.. i felt more irritates than before..
somehow.. i felt my anger grown bigger..
somehow.. i felt that u r no longer a friend..
somehow.. i felt bless to be in that group..
somehow... i felt more happier than before..
somehow.. i felt that my life is changing..
somehow.. i felt really down that time..
somehow.. i felt that ive got time for myself..
somehow.. i felt my life changing into something beauty..
somehow.. i felt more confidence in living my life today..

well...it is somehow 'somehow'..
so..somehow, it doesnt mean it remain forever..
it will change due to passing time..
the time is extremely jealous with man..so live ur life..
dont depend on 'somehow' ..
somehow leads to many story, many events, anytime, anywhere, anyhow...

n for mine either..u may hv seen sme sentence is the same...or vise versa..
well...it happen since..hmmm..oh! just this monday...and a lot of things happen in only a days, huh?
well...really creepy ey...i aint living in this world for nothing..but Allah' bless...
so..if anyone sees me doing wrong...do please tell me , my mistake..so i would correct them..
teach me..as well...coz im still lack in everything.. ^^

bismillahirahmaanirrahim....
ya allah jika aku jatuh cinta
cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya pada mu
agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk menyintaimu ya muhaimin

jika aku jatuh hati
izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padamu....
agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta nafsu
ya rabbana ,jika aku jatuh hati jagalah hatiku padanya
agar tidak berpaling daripada hatimu....

ya rabbul izzati jika aku rindu
rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalanmu...
ya allah,jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihmu janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan
indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu ya allah,
jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasihmu janganlah biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam
perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepadamu.....

ya allah jika kau halalkan aku merindui kekasihmu jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas..
sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepadamu....


amin.....


wlupun bkn aq hasilkan... nis nak berkongsi ini pada semua.....:

missing you

as the time pass by..
without knowing..
i start to think the memories we had together...
flash back all the time we've been through...
huhh...really miss it...

do u know?
none of the other memory could ever replace or be greater than u?
hope we'll remain forever..

dont wish 'good bye' ..
but wish 'we'll meet again'..
if we didnt meet here..
so let it be, that we meet in heaven...
where there is GOD to judge our honesty in this friendship..^^