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Dengan Nama ALLAH Ar Rahman Ar Rahim

in the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful
..please be 'alive' wherever u are..

Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

sahabat...maafkan aku...

Duhai sahabat…

maafkan aku...
Jika engkau membenci aku kerana apa yang aku telah lakukan…maafkan aku
Jika engkau membenci aku kerana kata2 ku…maafkan aku
Jika engkau membenci aku kerana pandangan ku terhadap mu…maafkan aku
Jika engakau membenci aku kerana teguranku kepada mu…maafkan aku
Jika engkau membenci aku kerana perlakuan dan akhlak ku…maafkan aku
……
Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang aku perlu lakukan..
Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang terbaik dapat ku lakukan untuk mu
Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang dapat menjadikan kamu gembira…tp mungkin tidak bahagia…
Maafkan aku…
Terkadang…aku jadikan kata2 mu ketika marah ny kamu…sebagai sesuatu yang dapat menggembirakan kamu… agar kamu tidak lagi marah…sedang kamu tidak ketahui…ia sebenarnya memakan diri ini….
Sahabat…andai ku tahu…itu yang kamu mahu…tidak ku cuba untuk berkeras kepada kamu…
biarpun ia untuk kebaikkan kamu…
biarpun ia penunjuk kasih sayang ku pada mu…
biarpun ia pemangkin semangat buat mu…
biarpun ianya adalah untuk kamu meningkatkan diri mu…
Maafkan aku…
...
Andai aku mencalarkan kaca buatan kita…
Andai aku membusukkan bunga yang terkuntum antara kita…
Andai aku mengotori kain lukisan kita…
Andai aku mengaburkan warna pelangi yang tersinar antara kita…
Andai aku menyembunyikan kecantikkan dan keindahan laut yang terbentang antara kita…
Andai aku merosakkan kesempurnaan kasih sayang terbina antara kita…
Maafkan aku…
...
hanya yang terbaik yang ku mahu lakukan untuk mu...
sungguh...jika aku punyai syurga di dunia....akan ku serahkan kepunyaan ku padamu... 


Thursday, February 24, 2011

oh choral speaking!!! hate u!!!

oh!!! i hope i can skip this...ireally hate doing such things...i never involve in this ever...n now..i HAVE TO??!!!
its stupid, for me...
no! its not stupid..but its embarrassing..or mybe not embarrasing..but creepy enough for me...more than go some places alone...><
i hate it but im in it now,,...
 well...im okeyh with it now..i think i can do it...

BUT, when it comes to the other problem...that is...i take the role as a CONDUCTOR!!! this is real stupid...><
even i dont have to look at the audience...but looking at my choral speaking member is enough to make me freak out...
this mybe look normal for certain people...
but i CANT!!!
this isnt a game u can put me in...
i mean, its obvious that i cant do it..how could i raise my hand n drop it n raising it again n make some move with it or whatever...
oh Allah, please help me, guide me, n make me strong, give me strength.
can u imagine,  being in front of the crowd, where u r the only person, that is different from other n move ur hand backing them..??
i really cant do it...but ive been force to..><
its not that i cant speak english...its just that 'u faathimah, u be the conductor, u dont have to facing the audience..' What the heck?!
geezz...some people with their thoughts..fool others with the power in their hand...
mad at those who r already willing to do it...mad just bcoz she arguing,..or confuse or just 'no! no! no!' (but still...she has to do it...)
isnt it stupid...?
mybe for those who dont know the situation would just say 'coward lil girl' or smthing between...
but u r not in her shoes to say that...so u actually dont deserve to say anything...to condemn her...
u my thought u think abt her, but actually u didnt, u just thought abt others....><

Saturday, February 19, 2011

apa dh jadi?

dlm beberapa ari nie...gaya pmakanan n lifestyle pn dh brubah2..
huhh,...bru jea td.. kne chair-red-bear-red...moon-tah-moon-tah..
hmm....mmg, salah sndri la...
air n mknan sume.mmg ditolak trus oleh prut...
rindu masakan rumah, eh!! masakan ummi laa..
...even cucur goreng ummi wt pn akn jd plihan...ikan blis goreng n sambal ijau pn Alhamdulillah..one of ma favourite...
hmm..air kt sni. *. *. *. *. *.  mknan ny. *. *. *. *

eihsshh...xelok plak..nk condemn2 kt snie...dh la mknan hrian..mne x, xberkat jdny...
hmm...
kdg2 ttnye jgk...mkn ke xmkn yg bgus?
wlaupn mknan ny menaikn nafsu...tp bdget kluar..n nie pnybab nk saving2 jea mknan...
cth, ari nie, bli tghari utk mlm skali, klau sdap lae...ha! smpai sok pg la jwpny...
haha...
klakar ble pkir..mmg mmkin fat la duk snie...tp fat sbb ap?
lemak btmbah xkurg or cacing? hahaha...
(actually, xad pn tpikir cacing...bru jea td...:-p)


anyway...hope sume dpt mkn sihat2 la..especially kat rmah tue...jgn ingt 'sis bruntung la..dpt mkn sdap2..ummi msak bnda sme jea tiap2 ari..'
eissshhh..rezki msing2 kn...nk wat cmne dh rzki sndri or salah sndri wat diri sndir jd cmnie...><
haha...

klau dh skit tue...mmg sorry, d klinik is not ma destination...is horrible keyh...soo sorry bg sahabat2 yg mmg ambil berat..sruh g..tp..ia akn mysahkn byk pihak..so, biar sy skit sorg2..><
laepn..normally no one knows...nie kak yana la nie, p cite kt org..><
maaf kak yana..:-p

may Allah bless eberryone, especially those who are good to me..only Allah cud return d favour...