just because of her

im being a bad gurl, am i?

please forgive me...

i just dont dare to look through their eyes...

the heart pondered, 

attacking from d inside..

forgive me, O Almighty Allah...

im seeking for Your bless...with the help of her...

will You share mine to hers?

just want her to b alryte...

now till heaven...

she's evrthng to me...

but i dont thng im evryhtng to her...

im just a person..

thank u Allah, for evrythng...

i learn d meaning of love from her hug...

i learn d meaning of consideration from her smile..

i learn d meaning of appreciation from her gift...

i learn d meaning of lonely, sadness, and pain from her tears...

Alhamdulillah...You give somthng precious...

only learn bad things..

spinning mind

i often says..i need to be alone..so i can do anythng positively, correctly...

but when im in dat state...i know im missing smthng...

i need it..

i always tke my time to b alone...

and when the time comes...

its hard for me forget...what am i when i have u...

i abruptly says, i need to go...

so evrythng will go on like it was...

but it tend to b opposite...

i missed it...

i thought of being like it, 

i can live more and live with my fullest...

but evryhtng goes wrong...

i am weak alone..

tears pours a lot

sound of cries is loud

but no one there to erase it, to console it, to cheers it...

i can only create your absence,,

to make it clear dat u r always here..

cheering me...

but...i cant fool myself i guess...

the feeling wont change...

ya Allah...make them happy...

even i know...when they need me, they act need 'me' not me...

either they r fooling themselves...or im just in it to make myself calm...

ya Allah...please guide them...in creating peaceful place..

in getting a place next to You..

plead them with Your bless...

even without my existent...

they need You...