sahabat...maafkan aku...

Duhai sahabat…

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maafkan aku...

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana apa yang aku telah lakukan…maafkan aku

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana kata2 ku…maafkan aku

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana pandangan ku terhadap mu…maafkan aku

Jika engakau membenci aku kerana teguranku kepada mu…maafkan aku

Jika engkau membenci aku kerana perlakuan dan akhlak ku…maafkan aku

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Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang aku perlu lakukan..

Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang terbaik dapat ku lakukan untuk mu

Aku hanya memikirkan apa yang dapat menjadikan kamu gembira…tp mungkin tidak bahagia…

Maafkan aku…

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Terkadang…aku jadikan kata2 mu ketika marah ny kamu…sebagai sesuatu yang dapat menggembirakan kamu… agar kamu tidak lagi marah…sedang kamu tidak ketahui…ia sebenarnya memakan diri ini….

Sahabat…andai ku tahu…itu yang kamu mahu…tidak ku cuba untuk berkeras kepada kamu…

biarpun ia untuk kebaikkan kamu…

biarpun ia penunjuk kasih sayang ku pada mu…

biarpun ia pemangkin semangat buat mu…

biarpun ianya adalah untuk kamu meningkatkan diri mu…

Maafkan aku…

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Andai aku mencalarkan kaca buatan kita…

Andai aku membusukkan bunga yang terkuntum antara kita…

Andai aku mengotori kain lukisan kita…

Andai aku mengaburkan warna pelangi yang tersinar antara kita…

Andai aku menyembunyikan kecantikkan dan keindahan laut yang terbentang antara kita…

Andai aku merosakkan kesempurnaan kasih sayang terbina antara kita…

Maafkan aku…

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hanya yang terbaik yang ku mahu lakukan untuk mu...

sungguh...jika aku punyai syurga di dunia....akan ku serahkan kepunyaan ku padamu... 

somehow..

somehow... i felt my life a bit bless these days..
somehow.. i felt that Allah helps me a lot in my duniawi affair..
somehow.. i felt that im really close to Him..
somehow... i felt that they are good to me..
somehow... i felt that we know each other well..
somehow.. i felt all my problems gone..
somehow... i felt all my anger, my revenge, my irritableness gone..
somehow.. i felt that i meet someone i knew back then..
somehow... i felt that the burden responsibility of mine is began to expand..
somehow.. i felt an excitement in me..
somehow.. i felt that i ll be dead in deep unconsciousness..
somehow.. i felt the shameful me is losing itself..
somehow.. i felt im becoming more awareness to the surrounding..
somehow.. i felt my presence were bless..
somehow.. i felt that im needed..
somehow.. i felt my life is throbbing me apart..
somehow.. i felt more irritates than before..
somehow.. i felt my anger grown bigger..
somehow.. i felt that u r no longer a friend..
somehow.. i felt bless to be in that group..
somehow... i felt more happier than before..
somehow.. i felt that my life is changing..
somehow.. i felt really down that time..
somehow.. i felt that ive got time for myself..
somehow.. i felt my life changing into something beauty..
somehow.. i felt more confidence in living my life today..

well...it is somehow 'somehow'..
so..somehow, it doesnt mean it remain forever..
it will change due to passing time..
the time is extremely jealous with man..so live ur life..
dont depend on 'somehow' ..
somehow leads to many story, many events, anytime, anywhere, anyhow...

n for mine either..u may hv seen sme sentence is the same...or vise versa..
well...it happen since..hmmm..oh! just this monday...and a lot of things happen in only a days, huh?
well...really creepy ey...i aint living in this world for nothing..but Allah' bless...
so..if anyone sees me doing wrong...do please tell me , my mistake..so i would correct them..
teach me..as well...coz im still lack in everything.. ^^

siapakah diri ini?

di saat aku terlena dan hmpir diulit mimpi...
aku terjaga..dan menyedari..
bahwa aku keseorangn tnpa arah utk aku tujui..
aku khilgn kata dan
aku sedar..pilihan dan jln dhpn ku ini..
hnya pmulaan bg khidupan sbnar n lbey mncabar..
tanpa ku sedari,
aku hmpir lemas ..dek pbuatan n ptuturan mrk sekelilingku...
aku lemah...lemah mahu mneruskn pjlanan hidup ni..
ap yg aku miliki, tidak terasa spt ia mahukan ku..
terasa spt beban kepada mrk..
no one knows me..
they shouldnt be friend with me, just bcoz they pity me..


but somehow...
i saw a light, light that cud gve me happiness...
i know u treat everyone the same as u treat me...
but, im thankful that i know u...
u makes me feel that i still hve hope to live..

myb u ve experience it before..
so u know the best for me, or wat i shud be...(dat is, myself)
i finally realize, wat ive become to...
i cant be myself, bcoz i think to much abt them...
(bknny 'think' care tp 'think' think..)
 ummi once told me 'jgn pkirkn ap yg org pkir tntg ap yg awk buat...sume tue x pnting..'
hm...mmg btul la, tp kdg2 bkn ny kte risau kn ap yg org pkir...
tp ketidakselesaan yg dtgny dr mrk yg mmndg...huhh...

'keselesaan lbeyh penting dr kcantikn n kekemasan'


sbnrny xksah la dr ap pn...tp still kselesaan pnting..
boley ke pkir mcm nie?
i usually think like this...
klau xslesa..cmne nk slesaikn ap yg plu dselesaikn ataupn brda dmne2 yg kite plu brada...
hm...scara universal la...tak kire la ap2 pn....

missing you

as the time pass by..
without knowing..
i start to think the memories we had together...
flash back all the time we've been through...
huhh...really miss it...

do u know?
none of the other memory could ever replace or be greater than u?
hope we'll remain forever..

dont wish 'good bye' ..
but wish 'we'll meet again'..
if we didnt meet here..
so let it be, that we meet in heaven...
where there is GOD to judge our honesty in this friendship..^^