so, ble wat conclusion pn, kdg2
manusia mmg cmnie kea?
actually..i do involve in this too (sometimes)...
tp yg nie mmg xle kta ap la...
Ya Allah...adakah kerana satu perkara itu, telah mnyebbkb aku mlupakan mu dan telah mlakukan zina hati (secara tidak sngaja), aku mndpt balasan sdemikian rupa?
sometimes, we think we r close enough with them...but actually...the path is still miles away...
dan sbb nie...kte jd
xdpt nilai dgn btul...
(hmmm....aduuuiiii...dh bcmpur dh sume...various story in one paragraph? its INSANE i cud say...)
diri nie byk sgt ....smpai xtau mne stu nk pkai n mne stu yg sbnarnya...><
nk kta htpocryte? i am NOT...
but, i CANT be myself...or mybe i DONT know the REAL ME...
ble dinilai dr sudut negatif (wlaupn sumeny perlu, absolutely have to, in POSITIVE)..kte dpt nmpk, or berpkir nape, tujuan, sbb ssorg bwt cmtue...
hmmm...mmg bley trasa ati
sik apat mek mok molah ap2 laek...nk idup kedak tok...mek plu lbeyh maju agik...
mek sik bole bgntung arap pd org jak nk...tok yg jdik ny 'mati tgh jln'...
for somehow, somereason, sometimes, somewhat, some(..anything some...)
im thankful to be here, to know them, to think abt them, to be with them, to(...whtever them...)
well...not bcoz i think like this, they would think the same..
not bcoz i feel like this, they would feel the same..
not bcoz i want like this, they would want the same...
everyone is diferent ...their will, their wants, their feelings, their thought, their hobbs, their(...everything their...)
mybe dorg anggap ianya 'ala...perkara biasa..normal la..' tp kite dh terlalu (pndg kedepan) 'aeii...sukenyee..first time. . .blablabla. . . .'
xkea nameny..DIPERBODOHkn oleh emosi sndri..pmikiran sndri..pndgn sndri...
sume nie nafsu yg meminkn pranan..kite jea xsedar...
xpn keinginan, atau desperatation (haha...jgn trikut2 dlm esei, ayt2 nie...sume x ori..t kne mara..:-p)
kdg2, ad smething yg kte xdpt reveal dgn hardeye nie...
wlau ap2 pn...trima ksih sgt2 bwt mereka yg buat kte prasan sorg2, bwt kte trasa dhargai, bwt kte trasa secure, bwt kte mympah or x suk (ad kea? mcm org jea mnyampah kt kte..), bwt dri ni semngt, bwt nasihat utk kte, bwt kte xrse sorg2, bwt kte xterasing..
n maaf sgt bwt mreka yg kte bwt, xendah, bwt terasing, bwt mnympah, bwt bodo, bwt....( whatever bwt...)
ONLY ALLAH could return the favor..
only ALLAH..is the one, the Almighty God..
Assalamualaikum w.b.t sis,
ReplyDeletehye there.. :p
LOL, you're in dilemma, i can see that..
i know i can't judge you but hey,
may i say that you actually know what is the REAL YOU but u r the one who are AFRAID to show yourself to everyone?
or may i even say that i KNOW the real you..
i know this might pissed you off and say,
'honey, get lost! you don't know who i am!!'
but let me say, even sometimes we had a fight, we never intentionally try to make it more serious as you and i used to do to our other siblings.. do you ever think that?
sometimes i know that even we are from a different mother, i can read you precisely as you do to me.. maybe we have 'that' bond between us but actually what i'm trying to say is..
you are lack of confident, but don't be TOO confident, riak will come from nowhere..
Listen fatin, you must and you can, be yourself but as we know, all of us have our own 'Mr. hyde' side, so just make sure you don't meng'aib'kan diri..
mayb in this case, i don't really understand what are you trying to tell because i don't know how your life is as how you don't know my life is now..
but still, remember Allah, he has the key to everything..
'Barangsiapa yang takutkan Allah s.w.t., Allah s.w.t. akan jadikan baginya mudah dalam urusan.'
don't let the others judge you how you are.. you let they see what you are..
Allah, he won't come, we must search.
Men, they will come but why most of women out there search for a men??
Stupid huh? Even Allah had promised to every one of his slaves that every of them WILL!! has their own love mate, but his slaves never learn to be patience on what Allah promise for.. (including me!) because syaitan are always there to make us join them to HELL!!
mayb you think i'm as a small sis shouldn't talk to much as if i know what the hell is going on in this life but i just want to help..
If one day i am not in the truth path, PLEASE remind me.. because i don't want to die in miserable sis. you know better, everyone wants HEAVEN. (even i know i don't deserve that!)
yo!
ReplyDeletesweet...love it...
just when i thought the misery wont end...something just came up...n its u...^^
thanks again, i'll take dat as a compliment..
but surely , i think u urself know that..time change, as people do,
different place, different path, different life, different way makes human become confuse n end up misery(certain man) or some fight n gain happiness..thankz 4reminding me lil sis..
well, thankz again..i have no bother feeling at all, for all u have said...
we learn from everyone, so do i..even a baby or a lil insect could give a big lesson...
for some reason, we do need some in life..
i guess u r d only one..haha..
^^
Astgfirullah al-Azim...lupe lak nk taip jwp salam..><
ReplyDeleteWalaikumsalam wa Rahmatullah Wa Barakatu..
^^ haha
hehe, really? *referring to last paragraph on your first comment*
ReplyDeleteLOL, sorry late reply, bru dpt nk online! >_<
i'm glad sis!